Being Thankful...A New Perspective

I have found it to be too easy to be "down" on a daily basis. The day to day stresses of being a mom, the transition from having a full time job outside of the home to having a full time job (and then some) inside the home, and the lack of personal, mental, academic challenges have really left me having a negative attitude about my current situation as a stay at home mom.  Aaron has challenged me a lot lately to rethink my role as a mom and to step back and realize all that I should be thankful for. (Thanks Baby!)


It really took me a few weeks to recognize my negative attitude and to rethink my perspective. Is my new job hard?  YES. Is every day a challenge? YES. Are there daily things that get me frustrated? YES. Am I a control freak? ABSOLUTELY. Are these things ever going to change? PROBABLY NOT. Do all of these things outweigh the joy of being the one to raise my child each and every day? NO. To wake up each morning to a smiling face, knowing I am about to spend precious time with my baby boy that I'll never get back?  To know that because I am blessed to be able to stay home I will never miss a "first" of Parker's? To know that I am building a bond with my son..one where he is learning trust, love, acceptance, and joy? To know that when my baby is sad, hurt, or frustrated, I am the one there to comfort him and help him through? 


As hard as the day to day grind may be, as frustrating as some days may get...I cannot lose perspective of the blessed life I am leading every day. When Parker cries, I need to be thankful that he has the voice to tell me he's not happy. When he wants to be held for the majority of the day, I need to be thankful because one day he's going to be a grown boy who doesn't want to be seen with his mommy. When he fusses for no foreseeable reason, I need to be thankful that I am one there to try to figure out what is wrong. When the house doesn't get clean, I need to be thankful that I have such a nice place to live. When dinner doesn't get made or the dishes don't get cleaned or the laundry doesn't get folded, I need to be thankful for the extra 30 minutes that gave me with Parker. 


I have learned a lot about myself being a mom. One of the major things is that I love control. And when I feel like I don't have it...I get very very stressed out. Having a child, you have to let go of a lot of the control in your life. Your schedule is now your baby's schedule. Your "To Do" list is "What Your Baby Wants To Do" list. It took me 8 months to realize I have to let go of the control or I'm going to lead a very stressful life for me, my husband, and my son.  I am slowly learning to give it up....let it go...set it free....


Here's to being thankful...a new perspective...

"With all that I am...I surrender..."